My Perverted Fantasy....Part 4

    "I like the fact that I can invade your thoughts during the night. I want you to sleep on this next question and I want to hear your reply tomorrow when me meet to discuss the next clue. The question is: What is your favorite color of lipstick?"

     "I do like that beautiful, red lipstick that you've just applied to your lips, ma'am. It is incredibly erotic, by the way."

     Ohhhh my goodness...my mistress is asking about my lipstick preference...This can mean only one thing! I am going to receive a glorious blowjob from her on Saturday. Immediately, I felt my cock twitch in my shorts knowing that in a few short days, I would be looking into your eyes with my cock between your lips. This HAS to be the best news ever!

     "I'm glad that you like my choice. It does look spectacular. You need to gather your items and leave now. I must get plenty of sleep as I do have a lover to see tomorrow evening. You do have my permission to come see me to receive your next clue after my lover leaves tomorrow, slave."

     "Yes, ma'am. I will look forward to hearing from you when you'd like to see me."

     Like a young schoolkid, I bounded down the stairs from your condo and hurriedly walked home. Indeed, my mind was racing once again dreaming about your beautiful, red lips wrapping around your toy. Your oral skills are legendary as I've been allowed glimpses into your sessions with others. I've been fortunate enough myself to be on the receiving end as well, and I must say that there isn't anyone better than you at this activity.

     For yet another night, I slept restlessly while struggling with my aroused cock. Typically, I would grab your toy and begin to stroke to tease myself, yet did not trust myself not to cum. My balls ached while dreaming of your pouty lips and tongue worshipping your toy.

     After receiving your text to return to your condo, I found myself almost sprinting to get there. I'm going to find out about this lipstick clue today!! I....can't....wait!

     You met me at your door barefoot wearing an exquisite looking robe that looked to be made of satin which hugged your curves. It also appeared that your feet had been recently manicured with a rose-colored polish applied to make your individual toes look heavenly. Still wearing the ballsies necklace, you invited me to your bedroom, immediately laid down on the bed, propped up your head on your pillows while I stood fully dressed at the end of your bed. I did notice that your robe gapped slightly allowing me a glimpse of your gorgeous, alabaster skin.

     "I hope you slept well, slave. I'm sure that our time spent together yesterday must have frustrated you. How is my toy today? Oh, yes. And those swollen balls?" You say this while slowly running your fingers across my balls that you wear on your necklace...teasing me...seducing me.

     "I was frustrated yesterday. You guessed correctly. Your toy is becoming very bothersome to me, ma'am, especially while sleeping. And your balls? Tender, ma'am....tender to the touch. By the way, I'd like to compliment you on your looks this evening. Your robe is exquisite and you wear it well."

     "Well, thank you slave. Honestly, I've noticed that you've been eyeing me since you've come in this evening. My poor toy and balls! It's a good thing I did my inspection yesterday on them as I'm really not in the mood to see them tonight. They are pathetic compared to my lover's cock and balls. So, slave...I've noticed that you've been ogling my pedicure that I got after you left. You see, I wanted to please my well-hung lover with a well-done manicure and pedicure. Don't you just love my toes!"

     Gulping, I say, "Your toes are probably the most beautiful that I've ever seen, ma'am. Ever."

     "Aww...you're always polite, my slave. I believe they came out well too. Now, for the reason of your visit. Your third clue! Would you like to hear about it?"

     Anxious beyond belief, I quickly answered, "Please, mistress. I've had fantastic dreams about the words you left me last night after inquiring me about my favorite lipstick."

     "My words must have worked on you as I had planned. Good. Slave....I see that you're focusing again on my feet. Would you like to worship them? Tell me why you believe that you've earned the right to worship my gorgeous feet."

     "My apologies. I admit being distracted by your feet this evening. I would love to worship them with your blessing. I try my best as your slave. I recently showed my gratitude by purchasing that wonderful necklace, and the shirt you plan to wear in your fall race. I also mailed my tribute to Starbucks to you last night before I went to bed. I hope this is enough to allow me to worship your feet this evening."

     "Yes, slave. I agree that you do treat me well with your purchases and tributes. It does make me hot that you obsess over me. Okay, you need to understand what I'm about to say. I will allow you to worship my feet and toes, BUT you are NOT to remove any of your clothes. Do NOT ask me permission to release your toy for air. It turns me on to know that he must stay in your pants without a chance to escape. Also, for being a good boy, I will remove my robe which will allow you to gaze at my beauty. Agreed?"

     Breathless, I answered, "Yes, mistress. Whatever you say, I will follow your directions."

     Immediately, you untied your robe, removed it by tossing it to the floor, and became comfortable on your bed with your head propped up giving you a full view of me. Your red hair swept over the pillows, and you appeared totally at ease with a devilish smile on your face.

     Quickly, I knelt at the bottom of your bed and began my worship. First, with tiny kisses applied from one foot to the next. Next, tender licks of your soles followed by your dainty toes. I did happen to notice that you threw your head back as in orgasm and began moaning due to my worship. You then removed your glasses in order to further enjoy the activity. Soon, I took each toe individually into my mouth first gently sucking, then applying more force to the sucking.

     "MMMMMM.....you deliver the best foot worship, my slut. Ohhhhh....that feels wonderful! Keep this up slave. I'm very pleased....lick the sole, please....mmmmmm....You're incredible....Phew...as you worship, let's continue with tonight's clue. Oooooo...between the toes now...mmmmm. You must be curious about the lipstick question, correct slave?"

     Damn. These pants I'm wearing is hugging your toy too tightly! I wish that I had worn my shorts. I am intoxicated by your feet! I then become distracted by something else...I follow my eyes up your nude body to find nirvana...your pussy....the pussy that I've wanked to exclusively since February...o m g...I'm spellbound, especially seeing that familiar patch of hair leading from your navel to your garden....Are you talking? Did I miss something in my haze? Lipstick?

     "Oh..I beg your pardon, ma'am, I was taken in by all of your body. Lipstick? Yes, I'm very interested in hearing about the lipstick clue."

     "Good boy. Keep up with that sucking....take my big toe into your mouth and suck....oooo....mmmmm....Yes, we do have plans with lipstick on Saturday. Your next clue associated with lipstick is...are you ready, slave?..CROSSDRESSING!"

     Immediately, I quit my oral servitude and a shocked look came across my face. "You mean that you plan to dress ME in women's clothing???!!"

     "Ahhahahhahahah......ahhahhahahah....Does this clue SHOCK you, slut? Look at your face! hahahahahhaha.....Sooo funny! ahahhahahahaha....I refuse to go into details to partially answer your question. You'll find out Saturday! Ohhhhhh noes for you, cum-dumpster...You just asked a QUESTION which is NOT allowed!! What is that now? The second time you've neglected to follow my simple directions! You're in for it now! ahahahahahha."

     Knowing that I'm defeated, I avert my eyes and can almost feel the anger bubble to the surface. Despite the disappointment of knowing that my suspicions were entirely wrong, I pushed the anger aside and once again focused on your delicate feet and toes. Visions of lipstick, make-up, hose, and panties....yes, panties....forced themselves into my head as I continued my worship. I began getting a sick feeling in my stomach dreading what may happen now on Saturday.

     "Slave...hey, slave....slaveeeee......you are so absorbed in your thoughts right now. Awww....are you disappointed in the crossdressing clue? I know it is something we've mentioned, and I know that you consider it a limit. What did you think the lipstick clue was going to be about? I'm sure you believed that I'd be wrapping my beautiful lips around my tiny toy. Awww...poor, slut."

     As I continued my oral servitude, one could easily judge that my passion for this service had drained quite quickly.

     "Pet, I believe that I can re-invigorate and motivate you well once again as I can see how distressed you have become due to the news. I'd like to share some private moments that I had with my lover this evening. I KNOW that you love hearing about my exploits as I have discussed them with you. Would this pull you out of this funk that you appear to be having?"

     "Yes, my mistress. You are quite perceptive in picking up my feelings, and I'd love to hear about your earlier evening. Thank you."

     "I will not bore you with minute-by-minute details, but I can tell you that my lover has left something very special for you. Not only is my sweet pussy filled with his cum, but my asshole is as well....You see, Pet, once he got off banging my pussy which caused me to squirt over his stomach and thighs, he remained rock hard and requested a piece of my ass. What was I going to say after that glorious explosion? I quickly got on all fours, and shook my ass at my lover whose still dripping cock looked to penetrate this glorious asshole. With plenty of lube, he slipped into me and began pumping until he couldn't take it any longer and shot another load. After he left me, I made sure not to wash up well knowing that you'd be here as part of my clean-up crew. Now, I'd like you to get busy and clean up my lover's cream as I'm sleepy and need rest. Also, if you do a good job, I will allow you to get me off with your tongue."

      Quickly forgetting about any crossdressing thoughts, I slid up the bed and found myself between your legs. I smelled the familiar scent of sperm as I dipped my nose into the pink lips of your pussy.

     "To make this easier, Pet, let me try this...." With several grunts, you applied pressure to both your pussy and asshole which caused the white jism to spout out of both areas. "Ahh....now lick! MMMMM.....your tongue feels incredible....get in there and clean that up! How does it taste? Oooooo."

     Raising my head from between your legs, I could feel the spent sperm dripping from my nose, I replied, "Thank you for allowing me to clean-up, ma'am. I am enjoying tasting your lover's juices."

     "Get your head and tongue back in there. There's plenty more where that came from! Mmmmmm.....yes, pet.....flick that clit....mmmmmm....Now, don't forget my asshole....it's simply full."

     Adeptly, you raise your legs to your chest allowing me easy access to your messy asshole.

     "Yess....make it all clean, Pet. You are doing a wonderful job. I feel it...mmmmmmm....You are sooo lucky....I am usually the one who gets to taste my lover's sperm....I want some now! Don't swallow all of it....Give me some...NOW!"

     With a mouthful of your lover's juices, I quickly rise to meet your lips. Hungrily, you open your mouth seeming to beg for his seed. With passion, we share an open-mouthed kiss while both sharing in the taste of sweet spunk. Your moaning becomes highly arousing as I tug on your toy through my jeans.

     "Mmmmmmm......that was delightful, Pet. Since You've performed so well and were willing to share my lover's spunk, you may do your best to get me off."

     Sliding back down between your legs, I teasingly begin lapping at your juices.

     "Quit teasing me, you slut. Focus on my clit! I need to cum! OHHHHHH.....that's it! Mmmmmm....get that clitty...suck, suck, suck....yesssssss.....now SLAP it, slut! Slap my clit!"

     Following your directions by applying swift, open-palmed slaps to your clit, your hips begin to arch and a look of pure pleasure passes across your face.

     "Ohhhh......MY......GOD......I'M......GONNA......CUM.......YESSSSS!'

     With a great heave, your pelvis rocks uncontrollably in orgasm while squirting into my face. I eagerly do my best to swallow as much as the fountain as possible. I feel that you are in your own magic place few have had an opportunity to experience. Damn. I'm glad I'm yours.

     Two more clues before Saturday. My mind is swirling.

     End of Part 3....to be continued.

     I hope you're enjoying this fantasy, ma'am.

     Be safe.

     I remain totally yours,

     Your Pet and your tiny toy

   

   

My Perverted Fantasy....Pt. 3

   "Excellent, Pet. Now I'm sure that you are filled with curiosity with the second clue in regards to our session on Saturday. The second clue is easily solved after I dropped a hint yesterday. If you happened to notice my hint, you did very well with not asking any questions. Yes, Pet, I have indeed not forgotten about your gaffe yesterday. You'll just have to wait in "anticipation" to experience my chosen punishment. Now, back to the second clue, slave. If you didn't clue in yesterday, you may have missed me discussing "others" who are interested about Saturday evening. Yes, Pet, we will be joined by others who I've guaranteed will have a fabulous experience knowing that my favorite slut will be in attendance. Even though they may have never met you, they feel that they have since they've heard so much about you from me. I actually laughed out loud when they invited me to meet them to give me their ideas about their plans for you!"

     "Thank you, ma'am for sharing your second clue. I promise to do my best in order to please you. I also will make you proud, and will not embarrass you."

      "I would expect nothing less, slave. I know you won't embarrass your mistress, because in doing so the punishment would be unmerciful."

     Despite my perceived confidence, I felt week in the knees to discover that others would be in attendance. Who are the others? Is it it that dark-haired MILF who is known to have a dark, kinky side to her? Or it may not be anyone I've ever met. Not knowing and not being able to question is going to make me lose it. Hmmm...uh oh..other? other? The only other that I had considered happens to be female...Could she plan to invite a......"

     "What's wrong, my cum slut? It looks like you've just seen a ghost! Ohhhhh.....hahahhahaha...I seem to have struck a nerve with you knowing that others will share in our time together. Now....What could my slave be thinking....Ohhh.....hahhahahha! You're likely wondering who those others happen to be! No, no, no, my Pet. I will not divulge the participants by name, yet assuredly you will be participating in activities that you have never experienced. And, honestly I don't really care to acknowledge any of your wimpy limits either! You must accept these conditions if you wish this overnight session to occur. You've been warned...all 3 of your holes are open to me and my friends, whomever they be! You do understand, correct?"

     "I agree to your conditions, my mistress. No limits and 3 holes available, yes, ma'am."

     What am I thinking? No limits??? All of my holes available for her AND her friends?? No clue on the sex of her friends?? What an idiot! My mistress can be so understanding and compassionate on one hand. She has even allowed me to service her with my rock hard cock when she needs a good, hard fuck. On the other hand, she can be a sinister, conniving, evil, red-headed bitch who uses her over-active imagination to administer pain. I'm really unsure whether this is a good idea.

     "It's good to hear that you've accepted my conditions, my slave. We look forward to stretching those holes on Saturday! Hmmm...speaking of holes. Slave, I need to examine your tight asshole now. I want to ensure that it's ready for my planned activities. Now, bend over the chair, reach back, and spread your cheeks wide to examine your pussy."

     Without hesitation, I quickly bent over the chair and exposed my asshole to my mistress.

     "Listen closely, you slut, I'm going to do a favor and lube this tight hole now. I'm not going to assure that will happen on Saturday. Don't be surprised if you're taken dry if my friends see fit."

     With a groan, I felt a well-lubricated gloved index finger enter my anus.

     "Oh, you're grunting now. You have no idea how much grunting we'll be hearing from you on Saturday."

     With deft precision, the index finger picked up momentum and began slamming home.

     "This hole is doing well, Pet. Let's try two then three. Mmmmm....my second finger popped right in! You've got such a hungry hole!"

     Gritting my teeth, I could feel the beads of sweat developing and my moans increasing. Glancing between my legs, I noticed my erect cock had once again developed pre-cum on its head.

     "You're so filthy. Hahaha..look at my tiny toy! It's adorable! Flopping around with those balls bouncing too! Take it, bitch! Time for the third finger!! Take a breath....ahhhh, a little tighter? You like that? I KNOW you do!"

     My entire body was being slammed into the chair, and my knees buckled.

     "Whoa! Don't even fall, slut! I'm having so much fun violating your dirty pussy hole!
Mmmmm....that's it....fuck yourself on my fingers, Pet. Admit it, you love it!"

     "Yes, ma'am," I panted. "I love being your bitch!" Bam, bam, bam!!

     As immediately as it started, it ended. All of your fingers were removed from your hole, gloves were removed, and promptly slapped my face with them.

     "I really ought to make you clean these gloves with your tongue! Now get yourself dressed! You're exam is now over."

     Dressing quickly, I stood before my mistress who was standing in front of me smiling with her hands on her hips. I notice that bright, red lipstick had been applied while I had been dressing.

     "Okay, Pet. Your third clue will be given tomorrow. I am going to tease you, however. I like the fact that I can invade your thoughts during the night. I want you to sleep on this next question and I want to hear your reply tomorrow when me meet to discuss the next clue. The question is: What is your favorite color of lipstick?"

     End of Part 2....to be continued

     I hope you've enjoyed the reading this evening.

    Still nuts for you ;)

     I remain,

     Your Pet and your tiny toy :)

My Perverted Fantasy....Pt. 2

     After quickly agreeing, you continued, "Your first clue is strap-ons. Not one strap-on. Several."
     I asked, "I'm intrigued, ma'am. How many is several?"
     Frowning, you corrected sternly, "Oh, Pet...You did not remember our agreement regarding asking questions about the clues I give. I sincerely hope that you will be prepared to accept punishment for specifically doing what I warned you about not doing."
     Distressed, I responded while averting my eyes, "My sincerest apologies, ma'am. I did forget your direction and promise not to ask further questions. I am willing to accept whatever punishment you see fit."
     "I accept your apologies, Pet, and am pleased that you are willing to accept the punishment of my choice. Actually, you have no choice in the matter. You are going to be punished whether you accepted it or not! I am pleased, however, to hear the eagerness in your voice when I mentioned strap-ons. I would recommend that you arrive to our session fully cleansed as I and others have many interesting plans for you on Saturday evening."
     My thoughts once again raced: What does she mean when she included the term "others" who had "interesting" plans for me at our session. This bit of slipped information surprises me particularly, because you have never shared me with another, and it was obvious that you had already discussed with "others" about attending our session while agreeing to demand that I be squeaky clean. Shuddering, I dared not ask another question of you as my past slip up would be immediately pounced upon if I asked yet another question. Is my mistress teasing me with this slip up?
     After a restless night with various strap-ons dancing in my head, I woke up in a bit of a sweat. I had dreams of being pegged by various-sized strap-ons that seemed to be floating around a room. When one strap-on easily slipped out of my anus, another would quickly take its place. I told myself that I was glad that this was just a dream, yet was curious about the next clue I would receive today, on Tuesday, several days before the overnight session.
     "How did you sleep, Pet? I'm quite sure that my tiny toy grew quite excited about our little talk yesterday. You didn't touch my toy during the night did you, Pet?"
     "You are correct, ma'am. Your toy became quite excited at the thought of your clue yesterday. And, no, ma'am. You know that I would never touch nor wank your toy without your explicit permission. My penis and balls belong to you and are mine no longer."
     "Good, Pet, for not playing with my property. I will give you some relief, however. I am feeling somewhat benevolent this Tuesday evening as I know that you are quite excited about serving me in a few days. Remove all of your clothes for me, Pet. I need to inspect my little toy and those tiny balls. Hahaha....I'd like to compare those balls to the ones that I wear around my neck. I really don't expect much as I'm quite confident that I'll be more pleased with my necklace than what is between your legs....hahahaha. And a few words of caution, Pet. Do not ask me to remove any of my clothing articles as this is about what pleases me, not your desires. Also, you are not allowed to touch my toy! It's MINE, and I simply want to inspect him, because I realize that he has missed my attention!"
     Quickly, I disrobed as instructed, and stood in front of you with my hard cock throbbing at attention.
     "Ohhh, Pet! My toy appears to be incredibly happy to see me. Please step closer to me in order to continue my inspection."
     Nude and at attention, I stepped towards you filled with eagerness, yet with a bit of trepidation as I have been incredibly horny since it had almost been one full month since you allowed me to get off. Secretly, I didn't trust myself. When I looked into your inquisitive eyes as you looked at your toy, I wanted nothing more than to receive one of your exquisite blowjobs that I know that others had recently received. I know that others have cum simply from receiving one of your delightful deep kisses, thus I didn't trust myself not to do the same. Hesitantly, I stepped towards you for my "inspection."
     "Now, Pet, in order to do a proper inspection of MY toy, I must touch it for firmness, and I must squeeze these tiny balls in order to judge whether you have followed my directions of remaining chaste. Under absolutely NO circumstances are you to move, and more importantly, heaven help you if you cum!"
     Unsure of my self-control, I closed my eyes and said a little prayer. You then touched my erection.
     "Ahh, Pet. I am liking what I'm seeing. You do know that I OWN this cock and am pleased at its hardness." Circling my cock with your hand, you begin slowly and tantalizingly begin stroking him. "Ohh, my tiny toy! Have you missed me? Awww...don't worry, you will receive plenty of attention on Saturday! Don't you even think of getting off, Pet! I'm not even close to finishing my inspection." Releasing him, your hands quickly grasped my swollen balls. "Hahahaha....yes, Pet. I can tell from my inspection that my tiny balls are full and are ready for release. You have been a good boy following my directions." Glancing at your ballsies necklace, you say, "Hahahaha...my beautiful necklace does resemble these itty-bitty balls. They're tiny, yet shrunken while these in my hands are fully swollen. Sooo cute!"
     Releasing your grip, I notice a bit of pre-cum on the tip of your toy. Blissful that I survived this inspection, I sighed in relief.
     "What is that huge sigh for, Pet? Glad you survived? I'm not. I was secretly hoping that you'd lose control which would result in some serious pain. Damn. I do notice something, however, Pet. On the head of my toy is a blob of pre-cum. I'm happy that I turned you on like this, Pet, but you must clean that up with your tongue. NOW!"
     Immediately, my fingers went to my cock wiping off the pre-cum as instructed. Rapidly, I raised my fingers to my mouth and swallowed quickly as I have been instructed in the past.
     "Excellent, Pet. Now I'm sure that you are filled with curiosity with the second clue in regards to our session on Saturday. The second clue is....."

     To Be Continued....

     Enjoy :)

     (Honestly, I'm hoping that you are getting wet from my fantasy, ma'am. Also, I hope that you feel the need to re-read it more than once...)

     Pleased that your day went well today. :)

     I remain yours, ma'am.

     Your Pet and your tiny toy...
   

My Perverted Fantasy...Pt. 1

     I've eagerly anticipated our upcoming encounter for months. You've been eerily tight-lipped in regards to what to expect when we agreed to our first overnight session. I recognized the fact that you did not offer such arrangements with others, yet had developed enough trust with your pet to concede to my request. 

     Despite attempting to discuss activities, you continued to play in a coquettish manner that began to frustrate your pet. I begged and pleaded to get an idea what activities you had planned? My mind raced: Foot worship? Strap-on training? Sounding? Caning? Wax play? Pussy & ass worship? Ass play & butt-plug? Would my mistress allow me to pile-drive her wet pussy with clit stimulation causing excessive squirting? My anxiousness to know was incredible as I knew that we would have literally hours to play! 

     With five days before our session, you finally relented with my requests for details. I was told, "Pet, since you've been so good to me lately, especially for the purchase of your tiny balls that I wear around my neck, I'm going to provide you with some clues to our upcoming endeavor. You are NOT allowed to ask any further details after I give you daily clues! You should consider yourself to be a fortunate slut that I'm even allowing you to fantasize about our future time together! If you do ask for any other details after giving you clues, assuredly you WILL be punished!"

     Quickly, I agreed to your conditions and immediately felt the familiar twitch of your toy that has been chaste for one month at your insistence.

     You further stated, "Today is Monday, and our overnighter is this coming Saturday. I will give you one clue as to our session today and will add one each day until THE day. Do you understand, you dirty wanker?" After quickly agreeing, you continued, "your first clue is....."

End Part 1....

Do I hold your interest, ma'am? (Thanks for the idea....fun!!)

     I remain totally yours, 

     Your fortunate Pet and your tiny toy :)

Sharing A Blog...

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The Ideal

     An ideal session with my mistress:

     I may be your most unique client as compared to the others who have opportunity to see you. Unless I'm completely in error, the vast majority of men want that power and control during an appointment mainly due to the fact that there is a monetary exchange. I've heard hobbyists say to the effect that they will ensure that they get what they want from the provider since they pay for the experience. In other words, if the hobbyist loves Greek and they know the provider is okay with it, they'll surely get that activity, no question, during their time together. They will do their best to lead the session to ensure they get what they feel that they pay for....(I hope I'm not confusing you)...

     I feel that I'm actually the opposite of that. For example, I wonder what other hobbyist has ever gone through a multi-hour session without being allowed to ultimately orgasm as I was.... I find that my nature (a submissive nature or a gentlemanly nature), is one that goes with the flow in following your lead. I know that you have curiosities, especially in the administration of pain, and it makes me feel special in allowing you to have these new experiences.

     I recognize that you likely have nearly 100% of your clients who want the gfe experience - kissing, bbbj, daty, multiple positions. Obviously there is nothing wrong with these experiences with you, because I do love holding, cuddling, and kissing you along with the forementioned fun activities, BUT I want to be more special to you. 

     I want YOU to have a wonderfully memorable experience! I want you to say, "My pet is my favorite client, because he lets me have fun and be myself. He allows me to gain new experiences as well. I get to do things with him that I would never be able to do with ANYONE else. His allows me to try things that I'm curious about, but have never found anyone else who I'm comfortable with to try it. He fulfills my sense of adventure and makes sex soooo much fun! My pet realizes that expanding his and my horizon regarding sex is so much more incredibly fun than a typical vanilla session! On top of it all, he gets me off better than any other client. He knows my body, takes direction well, and ultimately drains me with me yearning for nothing in session. He completely satisfies me, and my only regret is that I don't see him more."

     Through this blog and our experiences together in the past, you (like no other) know what I like. I'm cool with your lead. I wouldn't mind some components of a gfe experience (kissing, cuddling, fucking) at some point, however. :)

     Enjoy reading my post and thanks for the idea! You're the BEST!!

     I remain all yours,

     Your Pet and your tiny toy :)

Not Surprising....

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Guilt...

"Talk about why you feel guilty. I'm curious as to the background/motivations..."

     In a prior post about me, I admitted that I sometimes struggle with tremendous guilt regarding this relationship and sexual experiences that I've had over the last few years. The guilt has become so pervasive at times that I have considered ending what we have as well as any other future endeavors with others. 

     As you know, I was raised in the Catholic Church, thus took part in the various sacraments through the Church over the years. I also attended a Catholic high school finding myself surrounded in a homogenous group who for the most part had already developed life-long habits of attending church on Sundays while practicing reconciliation (confession & penance) and the eucharist. Upon confession of sin, practicing Catholics find God's forgiveness. 

     Many today are critical of formal religion, especially the Catholic Church. Despite the criticisms, this is the religion that I practice and my children practice as well. It makes sense to me....

     The guilt stems from my religious beliefs that what I am doing/have done are wrong. I do have a SO, thus I took a marriage vow long ago that included "forsaking all others." Up until a few years ago, one could describe me as the quintessential spouse who had never ever been intimate with anyone else except the woman I made a vow to years ago. Indeed, I was a chronic masturbator, yet even doing this caused me to feel certain degrees of guilt since I was not sharing this experience with my SO....it was always done in private and away from her eyes..

     Things changed when I met an erotic dancer who I developed a relationship with, yet went no further than mutual touching/licking/sucking...I initially had tremendous guilt, especially after the first time we spent time together privately...Despite the guilt, my first taste outside my current circumstances caused me to look for more which finally brought me to you....then several others....and back to you again...

     I must say that my SO is spectacular....she is understanding, loving and caring...the best mom...this makes it especially difficult for me, because she has done absolutely nothing wrong to deserve the behavior that I exhibit....Have I lied to her? Yes....Have I been unfaithful? Yes....Would she be absolutely devastated if she knew? Yes....Do I secretly want to hurt her? No.....Has she done anything to deserve such behavior? a big NO...

     Guilt? Yes....

     Sooooo....the topic has me kind of bummed and feeling very negative so I will leave it at that explanation....there is probably more, yet it may best be saved for later....

     Yours,

      Your Pet and your toy :)

Wishlist.....

     I'm unsure whether this would be a good topic, but I thought that I'd give it a shot. As you are well aware, I have done my best to make you happy with our relationship. We had agreed before stepping into this that I'd fuel your caffeine addiction with a monthly Starbucks' tribute, and I have been punished by sending more caffeine your way if I've transgressed from our agreement.

     After our relationship began, I encouraged you to update your Amazon wishlist to make it easier for me and any admirers to send you items that you've chosen. Personally, I like taking the guessing game out of the equation by choosing items that you'd enjoy.

     Since you've updated and continued to update, I have kept an eye out on items hoping to send you select ones that strike me. Over the last several months, would it be safe to say that I am your best client in regards to sending you items? If I'm not, that is cool too, because I know then that others enjoy spoiling you as well. :)

     Why do I enjoy spoiling you? Would I/Have I done this with any other that I have met? I have my answer for the first question figured out that I will share with you later in this post, but I'd like to discuss the second question whether I've done this with any other.

     The answer likely will not surprise you....No....I haven't treated others with random items from their wishlist despite having opportunities to do so since many ladies do have one posted. And, I'm unsure whether I would treat others with items, because I don't have a relationship with them that I feel that I have with you.

     I recognize that many in the "hobby" would call me "stupid, naive, dumb, sucker" for purchasing items for you or anyone as the vast majority treat each other in a business fashion as in a business transaction saying or thinking, "I'm not spending a dime on anyone else unless I get SOMETHING out of it." The SOMETHING is assuredly sex. It is well documented also that some ladies do take advantage of situations where they "milk" their clients and treat them with kindness and promises of "love" in order to receive tangible objects.

     I recognize all of the above, yet I continue to wish to make you happy with these items. In order to answer the first question, I believe that I have to post the graphic that I posted on this blog months ago. Why do I enjoy spoiling you? I believe that it amounts to the fact that you CONTROL my orgasms.
   

    I copied this from my initial post months ago: 

"I have found that I have become even more tolerant, attentive and patient the longer I am in chastity. These levels continue to climb as time passes in chaste. The longer in chastity seems to have increased these other positive characteristics in me. I find myself ignoring my own sexual needs since I know that the likelihood of being allowed to get off is nil. Since all of my attention is shifted from your toy, I have found that my attention is now diverted to pleasing you. Maybe it is because I recognize that you are ultimately the owner who can determine when I can get off sometime in the future."

     My theory: 

     I do love pleasing you and bringing you up when you're feeling "melancholy" or down. Admittedly, there are times that I must remind myself that this is no more than a relationship based on our business agreement, and I get that. The emotional attachment is what scared me initially, and I tried my best to explain that when discussing chastity/ownership. The last thing I'd want to do would be for you to be uncomfortable with something said/done which would cause a fall-out. One could also say that I do my best to please you knowing if you are happy with me that I may have a better chance to play. As you are keenly aware, I was a chronic masturbator, and it has been an ENORMOUS change for me to be in this position.

     With that said, time to watch a little playoff hockey. :)

     I hope you've enjoyed today's topic too.

     I truly remain yours,

     Your Pet and your itty-bitty toy :)

No Topic...

     So, it is 9:00 p.m. CST, and I am finally getting to a post....I have sat in front of the computer for over an hour visiting sites to get an idea for a topic this evening. Unfortunately, I have come up with nothing that I feel a particular interest about....hopefully over the next few days, I will once again be inspired to write something that would merit discussion... :(

Thoughts on Blog Post

     
After reading this blog post, I wondered if you had written it! I thought I'd add some thoughts on the author's recommendations:


     1. You must absolutely take control of his orgasms!

Check....Even though we haven't quite figured out the chastity device, control of my orgasms has been in place since February. It still is extremely erotic after these months to have my orgasms controlled by you. It's difficult to put into words to explain why this turns me on so much. I approached with you with the idea, and I have no regrets. :)

     2. Control your own feelings of guilt.

I recognize that my toy is owned by you, and I am not allowed to orgasm without permission. I know that I have stepped out of line and have played without your permission, yet I have always felt a great degree of guilt and have confessed my transgressions. You have also attached a punishment that is a true detriment to keep my hands from your toy.

As for her other points regarding ruined orgasms, I am soooo incredibly fortunate to have a mistress who recognizes that I am weak and will make mistakes. Honestly, after a lifetime of habitual wanking, I do not believe that I could orgasm only 3-4 times in one year. I could see myself asking out of a relationship where I was not allowed to fully orgasm more than she recommends. I still consider myself to be a male with needs and despite my age, I get quite horny....surprise surprise....

     3. You must get into his head!

It is recommended to learn my fantasies......As I have said in the past, YOU know more about my fantasies than ANYONE I know....This blog has allowed you a glimpse into my head, especially in regards to my sexual desires. Often it has been hard for me to find topics as I believe that you know me soooo well that nothing I can add will break new ground....

Even though we do not talk, your texts continue to serve as a motivator to continue this relationship....I continue to look forward to hear from you and am humbled that you chose me for this relationship as well :)

     4. You must keep him sexually aroused as much as possible.

There is nothing as hot when you use your texting to get me off and/or tease me. I continue to check my phone countless times during my day hoping to hear from you. You have used countless ideas to arouse me and ordered me to do something sexual. I do know that you find it erotic for me to get off at work ;)

btw....I LOVE getting you off as is recommended! One of the most erotic times was when you used my texts to play with yourself and to eventually get off.....wowowowowo

     5. Make him do something humiliating.

The author gives recommendations including wearing a butt-plug, CFNM, and masturbate for you. We have talked about many of these topics and hope to plan them in the future....

As far as the last recommendation to eat my cum ALWAYS ALWAYS, you were the first to ever require me to taste and swallow my own. I was shocked at first and did not know if I could follow through, yet I was proud that I actually pulled it off and have eaten my own several times since. Honestly, I have eaten my own when not directly ordered to do so....preparing myself for future activities ;)

     6. Punish him whenever he displeases you.

The author recommends not to let me get away with anything. I know that I've been bad in our relationship and am happy to report that I try my best to be honest with you. I am sooo happy to be owned by a mistress who is compassionate and realizes my weaknesses without being one who deals out punishment at all times.

     7. Find ways to tease him.

Unfortunately, distance ownership is very difficult. Of course, the ultimate would be having several opportunities to see you. You are simply amazing, ma'am.

     I hope you've enjoyed my post to your blog.

     I remain,

     Your Pet and your tiny toy :)

Becoming a Mistress: How to Control

Below is a link to another blog that I found interesting....I will post the link today and hope to give my views tomorrow.

Enjoy, ma'am

Becoming a Mistress: How to Control: I have done my research over the years and have been trying to find a way to sum it all up in a simple form. Well, here it is. If you wa...

In Chicago

I have a few minutes to post at least something to your blog this evening. Unfortunately, time got away from me last night as I was out for a bit and retired early since I knew today would begin early.

I wish to thank you for being so understanding and good to me. Despite being told to clean my mess with my tongue Thursday, you allowed another release after. You sounded surprised a bit that it took me a very brief (5 minutes) time to get off any clean up (swallowing quickly btw). As you are aware, I asked permission to wank to images of you from my Becki file. Images of you cause me to be aroused quickly and typically it only takes me very little time to get off when the subject is you. :)

Later Thursday I once again began my wank session by viewing a pic of you. Between your pic and an erotic xhamster video, I released once again...

I was thoroughly surprised to be instructed to wank this morning before leaving!! After learning that you have chosen items for your wishlist with your pet in mind, I became highly aroused. This is especially true when I first saw your desire to own the ballsie necklace. Of course I'm not sure that you chose this unique item with your pet in mind, but it's a turn-on to think that the necklace would represent the balls of your pet. Soooo incredibly hot to consider!

Well, unfortunately, my time to post is nearly done. I hope you've joined my attempt!

I remain, 

Your pet and your itty-bitty toy and balls...

20 More....Can You Stand It?

     A few more?

1. My favorite soda is Coke Zero.

2. I lost 70 pounds 8 years ago and kept it off for 3 years until work-related stress became a primary cause that got me off track.

3. I recall the song on the radio that I listened to before exiting my car on the evening of my high school graduation: "Electric Avenue" by Eddy Grant - 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IuwxZSIS__4

4. I rarely drink alcohol at home, but when I'm out, I'm a fiend.

5. I was a part of a group as a teen in a private pool who watched a male friend receive a footjob and handjob from a female friend (no completion, however)....

6. My brother and I were huge comic book fans when we were younger. I still possess many of my favorite comic from "back in the day" - Sergeant Rock: Army at War. 

7. My "experience" with porn has evolved from magazines, to reel-to-reel, to cable TV, to VCR, to DVD, to the Internet - the main source today.

8. I played high school football.

9. I did not go to any local strip clubs for a period of 10 years until I returned the last 4 years on occasion. 

10. My favorite vacation was a week at an all-inclusive resort in Cancun and later Mexico City where I visited many relatives.

11. I was born in the same year as my older brother....and no, we are not twins....

12. I love giving oral sex.

13. To the macabre...I have already purchased my burial plot and the grave marker is in the ground...

14. I have shared my hobby experiences with only two friends - one who actually saw a provider on my recommendation.

15. I can bench press 300 pounds at the gym.

16. I have attended the Lollapalooza music festival in Chicago each August since 2006.

17. I would recommend anyone to visit San Diego if you've never gone....jet skiing was similar to gliding over ice....soooo smooth...

18. I have never driven a motorcycle.

19. I am currently watching the "Breaking Bad" series...kinda identify with that show

20. I wish I was snuggling with a particular attractive, pale, redhead who has bad eyesight like me....(worn contacts since 7th grade...ughhhh)

     Enjoy my post! And a HUGE thank you for opportunities to release!

     I truly remain,

     Your Pet and your tiny toy :)

An Extension of Facts....

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20 Random Facts

     I thought it would be interesting to list 20 random facts about myself. All of them will not be kink related, however.

The 20 in no particular order:

1. I was an English major in college until I was a junior realizing that this degree was not going to make me employable.

2. I was recognized for a state-wide honor for my work, and my name and face appeared on several billboards in town.

3. I lost my virginity to my current SO.

4. I rejuvenated my interest in listening to music and going to live concerts 8 years ago after losing touch for about 15 years.

5. I wore my hair to my shoulders for about 2 years in 2006-2008.

6. I had never been experienced CIM activity until beginning the hobby.

7. I horde books and DVDs.

8. I tanned regularly for three straight years....yep, even in the winter.

9. I spend my Friday and Saturday mornings during the spring and summer going to garage/estate sales.

10. I cook dinner daily.

11. I am an impulsive buyer.

12. I have never experienced more than one lover at one time nor have experienced giving anal sex.

13. I pride myself in being a gentleman and operate under "the golden rule" when interacting with others.

14. I don't have a Facebook account.

15. I graduated Summa Cum Laude from college.

16. On the political side, I am a very liberal and have contempt for those who are not tolerant of others' beliefs/ways of life.

17. I'm a huge sports fan of Chicago teams: Cubs, Bears, Bulls, Blackhawks

18. I become conflicted at times due to my religion.

19. My interest in the BDSM world has piqued over the last two years.

20. I have an addiction to redheads with skin of alabaster ;)

plus one....

21. I LOVE playing with your toy, BUT I HATE edging.....(as I am now at your direction)....

Punished?

     Yep, I was taken by surprise by you once again. Yesterday I admitted that I had played with your toy without permission and had sent you a tribute as retribution for doing so.

     The circumstances of the transgression: I simply became aroused when replying to the various points made in the article I posted yesterday. Discussion of eating my own semen, masturbating in a public place, masturbating in front of you, and various other scenarios caused your toy to become aroused, and I thought that it can't hurt if I only wanked your toy a few times...what's the harm, right? Of course it felt so good that I got off and felt terribly guilty immediately as expected.

     When I reported it to you, I unexpectedly found you to be surprisingly understanding. This is yet another example of how much I appreciate you. You are very understanding knowing how weak I am. I freely admit that I do have self-control issues in regards to masturbation, and you seem to understand that I'll make mistakes.

     Later, you asked whether I would be able to perform some type of punishment last night. You orders were to get off as many times as possible since I couldn't seem to control myself with your toy! Seriously, I was very surprised since I was expecting a different type of punishment involving pain. Of course I did not complain and actually thanked you for your decision.

     I wanked a total of of 6 times over the course of the evening and this morning. I felt completely drained for the majority of the day, yet must admit that I enjoyed every orgasm. Of course, at my age, it took longer between yanks, but found myself not going to bed until 2:00 a.m.! I didn't want to waste time sleeping when I could be awake playing with your toy. Before work this morning, I wanked to begin the day and was able to stray away to release once while at work. :)

         
     The pic above that you recently posted is INCREDIBLY hot imo....Of course I am biased, yet it was a pleasant surprise and will immediately be added to the "Becki file." :)

     I remain yours,

     Your Pet and your tiny toy :)

Response to Article....

The question for this poll was:

“Which of the following would you find exciting if your partner made you do it?”

Answers in order of popularity: (380 men responded)

1.              Swallowing your own semen............ (66%)

As you know, you are the first to ever order me to do this while in the restroom at work. I vividly recall that I was kind of shocked when you required this, because it was relatively early into this relationship. At the time, I didn’t know how far you would go in your requests. This request in particular made me think twice as I am what I consider to be a typical male who had never even tried my own semen in the past. Granted, I had thought about it, yet never had the nerve to do so until you told me to do it. I recall being full of nervousness before doing it, and you told me to “swallow quickly” when asked for any tips. Honestly, it wasn’t as bad as I had thought after completion. I took your advice and swallowed quickly, thus it was gone in a short time…..Since then, you’ve required it to be done, and I have complied without complaint. I can not say, however, that it has become a habit as I have followed through only on your instructions.

2.              Being naked while doing chores....... (62%)

Never done this, yet I could see that it may be erotic.

3.              Masturbate in front of your partner. (59%)

I would have absolutely no problem wanking in front of you and have done so. Guided masturbation is so fricking hot….

4.              Wearing a butt-plug in public........... (56%)

At one time you asked whether I had any butt-plugs as you would like to hear my experiences of wearing one in public. Your recommendation was to begin with a small plug. I await your direction on recommendation for purchasing one to follow through on this activity. J

5.              Wearing lady's panties...................... (51%)

I have never done this before and can say that this activity doesn’t do a whole lot for me. I would, however, try it if it would please you, ma’am.

6.              Being fondled in a theater................. (40%)

The idea of this happening is certainly hot. I have never done it nor have even come close to have done it with a partner. The only thing that is worrisome is to be found out by others who may report it…

7.              Being naked in front of strangers...... (32%)

Due to self-esteem issues, it was hard to be nude in front of others, especially as a noob. Admittedly, it was uncomfortable for me to be nude in front of my first young lady that I saw who was not my SO. I can say that she was not a stranger as I had spent lots of time talking to her before any other activity took place. Once the activity took place, I was embarrassed by my body and did not fully disrobe, yet enjoyed myself as an oral servant who got her off many times. Over time, I have learned to feel more comfortable in my skin and who I am, yet am still not proud of my body by any means.

8.              Masturbate in front of others............ (32%)

I have gotten off in front of a single female, yet have never experienced the plural….I have never experienced a gang-bang, threesome, foursome, orgy, etc., yet believe the experience would be incredible. J

9.              Giving oral sex to a man.................... (31%)

I have never done this, yet the idea excites me, especially if I were guided by you. The idea of getting it on with a transsexual is highly arousing as well, as you know. The majority of men it appears would not participate in such an activity and have no interest. I would at least like to try it once to see if it would be something that I’d like to continue.

10.           Masturbate in a public restroom....... (13%)

Yep, you’ve had me do this activity. I found it very erotic, yet felt pressure to get off quickly as I did not want anyone suspicious of what I was doing.

What I find most interesting about these results is the fact that there was only one answer that did NOT get at least 30% of the respondents. At first glance you might think that men don't want to do anything potentially embarrassing if they have to be by themselves. That may very well be the case. It could also be that they felt they would have to do it in such a way that they would get caught. However, the question did not specify exactly how they were to accomplish that particular task (or any others in the poll, for that matter). I have personally assigned this task to several different man and each of them found it to be very humiliating and exciting to perform. I think men want to be pushed into doing things that they would not ordinarily do... Including jerking off in a public restroom.

I have said in the past that I really like your creativity when deciding whether I get to play with your toy. I find it exciting as the author notes to do things that are considered by some to be humiliating. Your plans and requests are totally hot!!

I will let these results stand on their own. The point I wanted to make to you women (especially you Key holders out there) is that humiliation is something that most men enjoy. Their tastes range from simple to extreme, but you will have to find out what