Pleasure & Pain

     I have been quite aroused and horny for several days after you were instructing me to edge on your texts. I know that you especially enjoy and challenge me in this activity as I have had extreme difficulties with edging in the past. My difficulties controlling myself while edging have been documented here. Both occasions where I have orgasmed without your permission have been due to my lack of self-discipline while edging. I find it so difficult to release your toy from my grip when I feel myself ready to pop. My full intention is to stop upon feeling my spunk rise from my balls, but I fool myself believing that I can always control my behavior. When I have done this, I have always felt loads of guilt as I am aware of my owner who didn't give her permission.

     With this said, I truly hoped you would relent and allow me to come today. When I received your first text saying it was doubtful that I would receive such permission, my balloon burst since my anticipation was so high. 

     Hoping to convince you to relent, I gave several reasons of what has made me an excellent slave to you. Since I didn't hear a response from you in a few hours, I almost gave up hope. 

     After receiving news that your item from your wishlist would arrive to you in Indy on Friday, I promptly alerted you. I was pleasantly surprised that you did relent and gave permission to come! I'm unsure what caused you to change your mind. Was it due to my behavior as your slut or was it due to being reminded that I had sent you an item from your wishlist? Frankly, the reason doesn't really matter, because you had changed your mind and given permission! Yessss!!

     One caveat to masturbating, however, was that I'd have to play with my ass while wanking and report here tonight. 

     This evening, I went to a toy bag tucked away in my closet. The toys and erotic books and magazines are dated and have not been utilized in a long time...years in fact. I found the following that I felt could stimulate and find pleasurable for your hole: a vibrating 7" plastic dildo, an anal intruder attachment to the dildo, and a good sized butt plug. Unsure how much I could handle without your help, I chose the anal intruder that was flesh-colored and measuring around 5" I grabbed some lube and proceeded to my bed. 

     I began lubricating your hole and the intruder as I laid in my bed unsure of what my reaction would be without your help. I lined up the intruder to your hole and pushed gently. Your hole surprisingly swallowed the intruder easily to the hilt! I was so shocked that I took it relatively pain free! I then grabbed the end and began fucking your hole vigorously with the intruder. Playing with my ass for you was becoming so hot! Your toy was certainly responding to the rape of your hole with the intruder. 

     Thinking that I may be able to sit on the intruder. I moved and sat down in a chair. Feeling the entire length added a couple more inches in your hole was accepted, yet somewhat painful. Your hole felt completely full. With your hole full, I began wanking your toy with visions of you,

     It was pleasurable, yet painful as my strokes picked up the pace. Unfortunately, the pain was felt more than the pleasure as I continued wanking to you. Knowing it was going to be difficult to reach orgasm, I slipped the anal intruder out and began to furiously jerk your toy and archived my pack with determination. With a mental vision of your lovely toes on my tied, hard cock, my spunk flew to my stomach with more strokes to ensure my balls had emptied. 

     Upon cleaning up myself and the anal intruder, I began the writing of this post on your blog. By the way, this entire entry was written using the blogger app on my phone....a first. :)

     I hope you have enjoyed this post. 

     I remain, 

     Your pet and your little toy :)