Embarrassed....

     Since my last transgression, I must say that I have been very proud of myself as I've kept my hands off of your toy unless given your explicit permission. I made it through 14 days without getting off which was a record for me. During those 14 days, I even met you and was not granted release during our three hour session! I felt that I had turned a corner on my masturbation habits as I followed your directions to remain chaste at the most difficult of times. I mistakenly believed that I could handle any future temptations knowing that you simply owned my cock. Period.

     You can't even imagine how I felt after transgressing once again this week. You gave me permission to cum on Tuesday which I promised to only wank when thinking about you. That day you said that I had permission to cum, but only within the hour. Since I was home already, I removed my clothes, laid on my bed, and began playing with your toy reliving our meeting. I remembered you playing with yourself as I got dressed. Your hand was between your legs rubbing your sweet clit while dragging fingers to your beautiful, pink hole. I knew that you were teasing me and it was working. I recall wanting to return to my spot between your legs and trying to get you off. Then, I relived you sitting on your toy fucking it with passion. I remembered your face filled with pleasure and your heavy moans. With that memory, I shot a huge load of cum onto my stomach.

     After cleaning up, I remained on my bed feeling wonderful thinking of you. It only took a couple of minutes when your toy started responding again. I knew then that I SHOULD get dressed and find something constructive to do to keep my mind off of you. Instead, I listened to my thoughts and the arousal between my legs. I began stroking your toy again knowing that I would stop before orgasm. I began thinking of you again and my wanking increased. Edging myself to orgasm, I stopped....the first time. Thinking that I could edge again and stop, I soon began wanking your toy again reliving memories of our encounter. In my thoughts, I was rimming your pink asshole, I shot a second round of cum onto my stomach.

     Immediately, I knew what I had done was inappropriate and WRONG. I felt extremely guilty and embarrassed for not following your instructions. I thought that I was stronger than what I find myself to be. I am truly weak when it comes to you. Memories of you and visions always causes me to become aroused....tremendously. This time it was too much for to take and I'm truly sorry for that.

     It took me until today to relate my latest transgression to you by paying the appropriate tribute and texting you. At first, I considered not telling you as there would be no way for you to ever know. I woke up this morning knowing that I would have to confess as the guilt was eating at me.

     I can say that I have a wonderful mistress in you, ma'am. You replied that you were disappointed, yet glad that I told you about my poor behavior. You also understood that this relationship is new for me and you understood. I truly expected you to be angry at your pet for my misbehavior and am overjoyed that you took a totally different approach in dealing with me. It makes me unhappy to disappoint you and I do apologize once again.

     If there are any other punishments besides tribute, I accept them as I have accepted others. I deserve anything that you believe would be appropriate as I am guilty.

     To reiterate, I feel that I am the luckiest sub to have such an understanding and lovely mistress. I am proud and glad that I am yours.

    I hope you have enjoyed this blog, ma'am.

     I remain,

     Your pet and your little toy :)