You can not believe how pleased I was when you agreed to
this relationship. I know it was quite a commitment on your part due to your
busy life to take on something like this. I still recall talking to you
initially about your interests in sadism including sissification, cbt, and
chastity. I was ready to jump into my computer screen upon discovering that you
found these activities to be hot! I may have surprised you as well knowing that
these activities certainly interested me also. Indeed, we did seem to spark
when I had opportunity to see you, yet believed that you were more into the
bottom activities when we first met. I recall you encouraged me to check out
the FetLife website when I initially told you that I kind of liked kinky stuff
that went beyond the vanilla.
I can also admit that it excited me to
know that you were willing to be the one who would help me explore my limits.
Initially, I had only asked for you to control my orgasms, and you suggested
that we take this relationship a step further. Honestly, the sky seems the
limit when considering activities that expose me to so many new experiences
with you.
Since the Agreement:
ad·dic·tion
[uh-dik-shuhn]
noun
the state of being enslaved to a habit or practice or to something that is psychologically or
physically habit-forming to such an extent that its cessation causes severe trauma.
The noun above does a
wonderful job of summarizing how I've changed since we agreed to this
relationship. Nary a day goes by when I do not think of you, ma'am, since we
started on February 1. I have possessed your phone number since we met in 2011
and rarely contacted you in the years that followed until now.
From day one of our
arrangement to now, I truly grow excited to feel that familiar buzz of my cell
phone alerting me to a text message. Before pulling out my phone, I am always
anxious to see if you were the one to send me a text. I literally become bummed
when I see it is someone other than you. When the message is from you, I read
it quickly and do my best to respond quickly. It became particularly hot when
you contacted your pet first in the morning without hearing from me first. That
proved your appreciation for me and that you have your pet on your mind as
well. Yes, I have an addiction.....and that addiction is you.
Also, as I explained
numerous times, I was a habitual wanker before this relationship. You have
helped me value moments where you allow me to get off. I can no longer take
them for granted as you have become my owner. My desire to serve you grew
tremendously when you chose to have me remain chaste for two weeks. It was an
unusual experience to grow to accept chastity without becoming frustrated
knowing that you ultimately controlled me.
My evenings used to be spent
on sites that got me off in video form. I still currently have paid
subscriptions to two sites on top of other free sites that I wanked to. Now, I
rarely visit these sites as they not stimulate me nearly to the heights as you
do. When given permission by you, I have gotten off to pictures or memories of
you only. You have become my primary focus. The only deviation was when given
permission to wank as much as I wanted to do so. You have become even more
attractive to me after we agreed on this arrangement knowing that you are my
mistress.
The time we spent together
exploring certainly did not take away my focus from you. It only increased due
to that experience which was likely the best I've had. (The squirting
experience would be the challenger).
As I sit here writing this
post to your blog, I am wearing a ring in order to correctly find my
measurements for a chastity cage for your toy. I am soooo excited at taking the
next step in our relationship. Knowing that you will become my keyholder is
incredibly hot. I know that I think of you many times during the day now....it
will be quite interesting to see if I will become even further addicted to you.
I see myself becoming more needy as I became today. I know that you said that
you are ready to accept more attention, and I hope to not become a burden to
you.
I hope you have enjoyed the
last two days in discussing our experiences from my point-of-view so far.
I remain,
Your pet and your little toy
:)
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