Randomness....

     You may realize that sometimes I have already struggled with topics to post in your blog. I have appreciated your help in the past in providing me with some ideas to write about.

     As far as kink activities that I'm curious about, I have others that I intend to describe, yet sometimes (like tonight) I think that they have become too predictable, thus boring. It isn't easy writing about myself and my feelings, because it seems selfish on my end. When I continue to write about myself and MY desires, I feel then that it becomes all about me and my desires...I'm not sure if this makes sense, but it is what I'm thinking.

    I know that the intention in setting up and writing posts to your blog was to provide you with a glimpse into my head as we progress in this unique relationship. True, I've done my very best to follow this simple instruction, because I know that you like reading them. It has definitely become my tribute to you, and I'm always happy to know that they please you. As you know, it gives me further pleasure that my words (and maybe pics) have an effect on you, especially when you admitted to using some of them to get off....simply the BEST.

     Today reminded me of how I look forward to being released from my own work obligations. It was awesome being off taking care of errands and going to the gym without constantly looking at the clock.

     One of my goals this spring/summer is to work my way back into my clothes that I used to wear until 5 years ago. I did start back at a gym last July and initially lost 30 pounds which I have worked to keep off since then (believe it or not). In 2006, I lost an incredible 80 pounds and kept it off for about 3 years until a new job and its stresses caused me to backslide in 2009. I went down 3 pant sizes, 2 shirt sizes, and even grew my hair to my shoulders that made me look very much like a Sicilian mobster. I was even questioned by my friends and members of my family if I was going through a "mid-life crisis" at the time! (My kids and the SO absolutely HATED the hair, but others loved it). To go along with my weight loss and the hair, I was tanning year round which is terrible for your skin, but my natural complexion loved it. It's really amazing what stress causes to one's body....lesson learned....Gotta break out those old clothes :)

     On another note, do you know that I miss you? This comment is not to make you feel bad or guilt you. I know that your obligations as a spouse, student, sex worker, and daughter are overwhelming at this time in your life. Hopefully, the time you are spending now will ease soon, especially on the school end :)

     Hopefully your appointment this evening was fun for you. To reiterate, imagining you having sex with others is absolutely hot. To be a fly on the wall would be.....heaven.

     Re: Sizing Rings.....one comment: grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

     I remain,

     Your Pet and your little toy :)

Kinks: Part 16 Electric Cock & Ball Torture

     It seems that my recent fantasies in the femdom circles is that of cock and ball torture. I'm sure that many of these fantasies that I've been having recently can be attributed to my positive experience when you tied up your toy and balls. Also, I found sounding to be quite erotic as well. It really surprised me that it was not a painful experience, and I enjoyed having you fuck this hole that you are known to own. I'm quite sure that you're anxious to stretch my pain limits by further stretching this hole. :)

     One piece of equipment that looks fascinating is electric in nature. By all indications, you would tie your toy and balls up and "zap" them will electric current.

     In the pictures and videos that I've seen, the top appears to be having a joyous time administering this type of pain while the bottom is in pure anguish. I can imagine that this is yet another type of experience that would interest you. I recognize that you wish to further your experiences in this "world" as well, and I reiterate that I am the willing canvas to try anything that may please you.

     When we started this adventure, I was admittedly nervous as I had never experienced many of the activities that interested both of us. After meeting you for our last venture, I know that I can completely trust you in future activities. Even though I know that you wouldn't "fry" your toy and balls in reality, but the idea is totally hot. 

     A day of studying has to suck so I am hoping that you survived and are well prepared to meet your academic obligations. :)

     As for me, I'm feeling a bit better, and it felt great to get out of the house today after being cooped up on a Saturday. I quickly found that I am not 100% and anticipate more rest tomorrow. I am looking forward to having a week off from work, however. This year my week off will be quite challenging as in the past years I would spend lots of my hours during my off time wanking. I would find myself getting myself off several times each day spending countless hours doing what I'm not supposed to be doing now without your permission. This may mean that I may become more productive with household chores, gym time, and catching up with television and movies.

     I hope you've enjoyed our evening chat.

     I remain,

     Your pet and your little toy :)

P.S. An update on the rings: So I've tried with the smaller of the two rings after emailing MM. It has been a challenge to even corral my elusive balls to get it into the ring. Despite attempting to wear it, I've noticed that it also slips off my balls, especially when active. Today I wore it to the gym and felt one of your balls escape....damn.

My thoughts....I must have to go even smaller....I did not think it was possible, but I was able to manage to slip your balls and toy into the even smaller ring and am now wearing it as I type this post. I'm again hoping that this will work....for both of us ;)

I will surely let you know my progress....

Homage

     After a restless night of interrupted sleep due to illness, I woke up extremely early feeling a little better from the afternoon before, but knew that today would also be a day of rest. Never wishing to disturb you on a weekend, I texted thinking that you may be up and around on a lazy Saturday morning. You responded quickly and inquired of my health. You have no idea how much I appreciate you for these seemingly easy gestures. It shows that you do care. :)

     You later texted that you were sorry for not being an attentive mistress for not giving me much attention lately. On the contrary....I always feel humbled, yet excited to hear from you as I recognize the fact that I am indeed fortunate that you give me your precious time due to your busy RL. I know that others are not in my position. I truly do appreciate all you do for me. I do not expect nor want you to feel bad about communication. It is understood that you do have a RL with others who require your time and with tasks to complete at home as well as school. I would like to think that you would prefer to spend much of your day doing things that you like - like texting, teasing, and frustrating your slave - rather than doing things that you MUST do in RL. Unfortunately for both of us, obligations supersede all.

     With this said, I am one who is probably as excited as you when you can put your school obligation to bed after this summer. From our discussion, your plans after graduation include spending more time touring to various cities. This bodes well for more opportunities to serve you.
I know it's selfish, yet am waiting with bated breath for you to finish. Both of recognize that we seem to have a connection that pleases both of us, particularly from my end. And, we have said countless times that if we lived closer, you wouldn't get anything done, and I'd likely be broke! :-)

     By the way, as I contemplate your upcoming graduation, I feel exceptionally old.  You have shared your high school graduation date, and it astounds me. Clearly, this leads to the school girl fantasy for me which reminds me of our last date. And our last date reminds me of......well, you know ;)

     It also astounds me as I can not imagine having the type of relationship that I have with you with another of your age. Yes, you have this older slave wrapped around your finger, and there must be a feeling of power in that. Indeed, you control more than your toy with me. As I've indicated in the past, your allure is like an addictive drug. :)

     Before wrapping up tonight's chat, I'd like to thank you for allowing me to get off today. Honestly, I believed that I was the only one who liked getting off when sick. It's good to know that others like you find masturbating makes you feel better. I do not feel that I need to go into detail regarding my wanking session as you already know that images of you got me off yet again. I do hope to add other pic files to my "Becki file" in the future. :)

     I hope you've enjoyed our chat again, ma'am. Simply put, I adore you.

     I remain,

     Your pet and your little toy :)

Blahh....

     Yeah, I guess you can call me an addict....for you and your blog. I know how entertained you are when reading this blog devoted to you. I had informed you earlier that I was going to go to bed early due to illness. Also, I did not plan to post this evening as I needed rest. 

     Since I don't want to disappoint you in the slightest, I decided to post. Despite not feeling well, my thoughts are with you. 

     I realize that there is an expectation to serve Larissa and I truly looked forward to being at her feet. Due to this illness, I've contacted her and told her that I wouldn't be able to see her. She was very understanding and expressed the desire to see me when she returns next month. 

     I hope to feel a bit better tomorrow and look forward to hearing from you. 

Enjoy?

Your pet and little toy :)

Appreciated and Deflated

      Last night's texts began innocently enough. Typically, I give you notice when I'm about to go offline by letting you know I'm showering before turning in. I do appreciate it when you typically respond with a goodnight wish as well.

     Last night, however, you added that you'd been in shower as well and could use some "lazy orgasms" as I had offered my services before you retire. I then sent a text describing how I would tease you with my tongue and hoped that you would re-read or remember these texts as you got yourself off some time. Imagine my pleasant surprise when you related that you were getting off on these words as I was texting you!!

     The thought that you were masturbating right then caused your toy to become instantly erect and excited. It was hard to believe that my words were having such an effect on you. I began sending suggestive and erotic texts in order to get you off. I could actually visualize you with your phone in hand reading each text I sent you with sexual hunger and extreme interest as you rubbed yourself to ecstasy. I was further excited to read that you were disappointed in yourself after coming as my words caused you to come too quickly! Honestly, I am proud to have such a connection with you that causes you to lose control and come quickly. I know then that I am appreciated, and you can not get enough of my tongue.

     Then, you thanked me for providing you with "wank fodder" for my writing on your blog. Remember, getting you off has become my favorite activity. I would truly love to know which posts really struck you enough to become a favorite which cause you to use in order to experience orgasm. Again, I absolutely love the fact that you use my words to get off. I am curious, however, to know which of my writings you have used to experience multiple orgasms and those that get you hot enough to have to re-read multiple times. This helps me learn more about you. :)

     This morning, however, caused a much different emotion, however. I became deflated at losing out the prospect of getting off due to poor timing. You gave a 10 minute limit to get off at work, yet I was in no position to follow through due to work obligations. This was the first time that this has happened where I was unable to wank at you direction while at work. I know this frustration caused happiness on your end, yet I was miserable on my end due to my cum-filled balls. I'm hoping that your toy will be allowed to be wanked to orgasm in the near future. :)

     I hope you've enjoyed our chat this evening, ma'am.

     I remain,

     Your pet and your little toy :)

   

   

Wednesday's Best

     Yet another sampling of images that I find hot, hot, hot....enjoy :)

Kinks: Part 15 More Cock and Ball Torture!

        Admittedly, one of the most erotic activities that we participated in when we met was when you used your ropes to bind your toy and balls. I was actually surprised that I would respond positively to this activity since I had made a point of saying that I would not be particularly fond of lots of pain. I had not characterized myself as a "pain slut," far from it, in fact.

          Since this activity went so well, I would like to stretch my limits in this area. The idea of you further abusing your toy and balls certainly interests me. One of the items on your wishlist included the ballcrusher that I chose to surprise you with its purchase. I was happy to hear that you were pleased with the purchase and looked forward to using it on me for your pleasure.

     The pictures that I've seen do look painful, yet I believe that I may enjoy it as much as you who will be administering the pain. You had spoken about fulfilling further desires on your part, especially as it relates to pain. I'm hopeful that this is an activity that you wished to fulfill. I like the idea that I am not only experiencing new activities, but the idea that you are experiencing for the first time is too erotic to think about. It makes me soooo satisfied to be the one who you're sharing these activities with, particularly the ones that neither of us have experienced!!

     In one of my earlier blog posts I said: 

"Since I have given you control of your toy, I know that it is your decision regarding any punishment as you see fit. If it pleases you to administer punishment, then it is something that I must learn to endure. My hope is for you to help me experience this particular kink thinking that I will like it so much that I would possibly go further with whatever future pain you wish to administer."

     I can honestly say that I have taken a sincere liking to this activity and am ready to experiment further :)

     I am also aware of other types of cock and ball torture using gear like humblers and electric stimulation. I hope to profile this type of torture here in the future, particularly the electric stimulation. It does sound interesting and fun. :)

     I hope you've enjoyed the post and will be pleased. I never want to disappoint you with my posts as I believe that you really look forward to read them. And for that, I am truly humbled.

     I remain,

     Your pet and your little toy :)

Bonus: Incredibly Hot Video :)

Kink Gear: Dildo-Face Harness

     Well, today is a first in the history of this blog. I am currently beginning today's entry at work. Fortunately for me, today's work schedule has been incredibly light. I have completed my work obligations early and decided to get a head-start on my post.

     .....several hours pass......Unfortunately, I wasn't able to complete much before work came calling so I will have to finish this evening. Since you expressed that you liked hearing about my kinks, I thought I would include the following:

     I'm not sure this would fit into the definition of a kink. It definitely is a piece of kinky gear that is totally hot, in my opinion. This dildo face harness would certainly be a piece of equipment that would be fun to please you with. I really love that it would be a total tease and cause extreme frustration as I would enter and please you while being ever so close to your pussy.

     I feel that it is one of my jobs to ensure that you experience as many orgasms as you want before becoming satiated. To be ordered to wear the harness to please you would be a fantasy. I could totally envision you being aggressive similar to the gif above taking control to make sure that you get off. It wouldn't surprise me to lose some hair in the process of pleasing you!

     I also like the way you could choose to ride the dildo harness. The position of the slave under her top in the above gif would be a spectacular view. It would be extremely hot to have your asshole and pussy in my face as I attempted to please you. I'm quite sure that you could provide me with directions in order to get you off!

     The whole idea of being subservient to you gets me off. This device is yet another tool that I could use to please you and frustrate me. 

     I hope you have enjoyed our chat.

     I remain,

    Your pet and your little toy ;)

This & That

     After learning that your schedule may not jive with my break, I was incredibly disappointed. Honestly, I am looking forward to being off work, yet the luster of this event loses its shine if seeing you doesn't work out. I am hoping that things do work out in order to spend some time with you. As you are aware, my addiction continues to thrive...

     Lending me out to another if things don't work out is hot, yet falls short of serving you, my mistress. I'm happy that you've contacted her and explained our arrangement. It is a definite turn-on that she knows that I serve you. If it comes to pass, I promise to do my best to please her knowing that you'd want me to perform at my best as your slave. 

     On another note, I am currently wearing the smaller of the two sizing rings that mm suggested I continue to test. Earlier today I wore the same ring and completed a two-mile, brisk walk. My "rebellious" balls were kept in check along with your toy for the whole walk. When I began cooling down, however, I could feel my groin area swelling and the ring caused extreme discomfort. I once again removed the ring bringing instant relief to my groin.

     Once again this evening, I cajoled my balls and toy once again into the ring and have been wearing it since. I do notice that when I recline, the discomfort isn't great. When coming to a more sitting position, the discomfort increases. From what I've read, discomfort is expected. I'm hoping I can shower this evening, sleep, and wear it tomorrow without my balls escaping or having to remove it due to discomfort. We shall see....

     By the way, I'm thinking that I may take off from work on Tuesday this week. I would love to have another gmail chat session similar to what we did earlier when you punished my balls and your toy if you're available and interested. Or you could use your vivid imagination to come up with something different than what we had done before. That first experience through chat was truly incredible and erotic. ;)

     I hope you've enjoyed our chat, ma'am. 

     I remain, 

     Your pet and your little toy :)

     

     

*%@#% Rings!!

     As you know, I received a bag of 9 sizing rings from Mature Metal in order to find the size that would fit my custom-made Jail Bird chastity device. I have to find the correct size of two rings: the base ring where I place my balls through the ring and tuck your toy through the ring and the second ring that will determine the inside diameter of the cage.

     The directions are good, because they are very detailed and explicit. When determining the base ring, you know you have the right size when you can only fit your index finger up to the first knuckle under the ring.

     I was honestly surprised to see the selection of sizing rings that were included. It was recommended to start with the largest ring first in determining the correct sized base ring and work your way down until finding the correct one. Surprisingly, the largest ring, 2 1/8", fit snugly, yet I thought it was too large as I could get more than my index finger under the ring. The next size, 2", fit snugly, and I was only able to get my index finger through. I thought that this ring would be THE RING. I decided to take a wear it to bed Thursday night and woke up several times to check to see if it had slipped out and was pleased that it still captured my balls and your toy quite well.

     I wore the ring under my clothes on Friday at work and got an idea of what it would be like to wear a chastity device. It wasn't painful, yet I felt slight pressure to my groin knowing that the ring was doing its job.

     Every time I felt the pressure, which was quite often, I thought of you. And when I thought of you, I found myself daydreaming about you....wondering if you had woken up, wondering how you were while sitting in class, wondering if I should text you, wondering simply what you were doing....also fantasizing about you....all those perverted ideas that you know I possess came into play in my mind....

     As expressed previously, being in chastity is the next step of total ownership.  I truly foresee myself being further pulled under your mysterious spell when we take this next step, because the device will remind me constantly of you. The device simply can not be ignored causing me to focus on you even more than now. I was happy to be re-assured by you that you would be able to handle this needy sub while in chastity when I explained my thoughts.    

     Back to the sizing ring....Like any other, I know my body. I was pleased through the morning that the ring continued to do its job of holding my balls in place. My balls are known to seem to "disappear" and move at times hiding deep in my scrotum. Around noon, as I sat up at my desk working, I noticed that the pressure in my groin changed. I quickly checked the ring and found that one of my balls had freed itself, no longer being held in place by the ring. When adjusting, the entire ring fell off useless :(

     I texted you explaining my condition knowing that I would have to go home after work to try out a smaller ring. When I got home, I took out the next smallest ring, 1 7/8", later in the early evening. I shook my head when I examined this size of ring knowing it was going to be a chore to capture my balls and toy into such a small sized ring. Just looking at it size made me cringe knowing that there would be some pain in getting it to fit. I began....tried....gave up....tried again....gave up...tried yet again....gave up. I decided to try later in the evening. Later in the evening, I was finally successful in getting the ring on! My balls and your toy, however, were TIGHTLY bound. I was unable to even fit my index finger under the ring. I wore the ring for an hour, but could not take the pressure and pain as I tried to do simple things around the house. I removed the ring with some difficulty bringing relief. At this point, I decided to experiment with the rings on Saturday.

     Today, I went back to the 2" inch ring that had slipped off yesterday at work. I wore it this morning, took a walk with it on, and it seemed to be doing well holding my balls and your toy in place. This evening, however, I was involved with cooking dinner and the ring slipped off and lost my balls again!! Sooooo frustrated!! I know that the smaller ring does not seem to be an option due to my experience last night and am unsure about the 2" ring I wore today....grrrrrr!!!!

     I plan to try the 2" ring again and crossing my fingers! I also plan to bring the rings to you when I see you soon so that you can experiment with them as well.

     One positive experience that happened yesterday was when you gave me permission to come within 30 minutes at work without the use of any media. Fortunately for me, I had no obligations at work at this time and I quickly found myself in the private restroom at work. I dropped my pants, shorts, and began wanking your toy with vigor. With thoughts of you running through my mind, it didn't take long for me to send streams of come to the bathroom floor. Quickly cleaning up, I reported back to you who seemed surprised that I had completed. From the time you gave me permission and me getting off was probably less than 10 minutes. I was then warned that you may choose more stringent time criteria to get off.....this idea truly scares me, because I would HATE not being able to get off due to time constraints. Luckily for me the timing was excellent yesterday. Below is proof of yesterday's wanking opportunity:

     I want to thank you for allowing me a glimpse into your personal life. It means a lot to me. I especially love to hear about your upcoming appointments, such as the ones you had both Friday night and tonight. To know that you are sucking others and getting fucked by others is incredibly hot. Your short, yet descriptive email of one of your exploits turned me into jelly. I still recall the idea that you had of me being your clean-up crew to give you all the orgasms they can't!!! Such a wonderful fantasy!!

      I hope you've enjoy me writing to you tonight and hope you're having fun this evening at your appointment.....(thinking about this further may get me into trouble)....

     I remain,

     Your pet and your little toy :)

     P.S. I'm glad you're happy with the Ball Crusher from your wishlist! Hopefully we can play with it soon! (btw....more wishlist items coming......yes, I'm truly addicted to you....)

*edit: So I tried the smaller ring that caused so much pain yesterday and surprisingly it was much easier to get on! I've worn it for an hour, and so far it feels fine. Have I found my base ring??? I sure hope so! I hope to wear it consistently without issues for the next week. I believe that the other ring used to measure your toy's diameter will definitely be much easier! I hope to be one step closer in acquiring my chastity device which I will ultimately leave to you to lock! *
   

   

   

After: Addiction

     You can not believe how pleased I was when you agreed to this relationship. I know it was quite a commitment on your part due to your busy life to take on something like this. I still recall talking to you initially about your interests in sadism including sissification, cbt, and chastity. I was ready to jump into my computer screen upon discovering that you found these activities to be hot! I may have surprised you as well knowing that these activities certainly interested me also. Indeed, we did seem to spark when I had opportunity to see you, yet believed that you were more into the bottom activities when we first met. I recall you encouraged me to check out the FetLife website when I initially told you that I kind of liked kinky stuff that went beyond the vanilla. 

     I can also admit that it excited me to know that you were willing to be the one who would help me explore my limits. Initially, I had only asked for you to control my orgasms, and you suggested that we take this relationship a step further. Honestly, the sky seems the limit when considering activities that expose me to so many new experiences with you.

Since the Agreement:

ad·dic·tion

  [uh-dik-shuhn]

noun

the state of being enslaved to a habit or practice or to something that is psychologically or       physically habit-forming to such an extent that its cessation causes severe trauma.

   

     The noun above does a wonderful job of summarizing how I've changed since we agreed to this relationship. Nary a day goes by when I do not think of you, ma'am, since we started on February 1. I have possessed your phone number since we met in 2011 and rarely contacted you in the years that followed until now. 

     From day one of our arrangement to now, I truly grow excited to feel that familiar buzz of my cell phone alerting me to a text message. Before pulling out my phone, I am always anxious to see if you were the one to send me a text. I literally become bummed when I see it is someone other than you. When the message is from you, I read it quickly and do my best to respond quickly. It became particularly hot when you contacted your pet first in the morning without hearing from me first. That proved your appreciation for me and that you have your pet on your mind as well. Yes, I have an addiction.....and that addiction is you.

     Also, as I explained numerous times, I was a habitual wanker before this relationship. You have helped me value moments where you allow me to get off. I can no longer take them for granted as you have become my owner. My desire to serve you grew tremendously when you chose to have me remain chaste for two weeks. It was an unusual experience to grow to accept chastity without becoming frustrated knowing that you ultimately controlled me. 

     My evenings used to be spent on sites that got me off in video form. I still currently have paid subscriptions to two sites on top of other free sites that I wanked to. Now, I rarely visit these sites as they not stimulate me nearly to the heights as you do. When given permission by you, I have gotten off to pictures or memories of you only. You have become my primary focus. The only deviation was when given permission to wank as much as I wanted to do so. You have become even more attractive to me after we agreed on this arrangement knowing that you are my mistress. 

     The time we spent together exploring certainly did not take away my focus from you. It only increased due to that experience which was likely the best I've had. (The squirting experience would be the challenger).

     As I sit here writing this post to your blog, I am wearing a ring in order to correctly find my measurements for a chastity cage for your toy. I am soooo excited at taking the next step in our relationship. Knowing that you will become my keyholder is incredibly hot. I know that I think of you many times during the day now....it will be quite interesting to see if I will become even further addicted to you. I see myself becoming more needy as I became today. I know that you said that you are ready to accept more attention, and I hope to not become a burden to you.

     I hope you have enjoyed the last two days in discussing our experiences from my point-of-view so far.

     I remain,

     Your pet and your little toy :)

     

     

     

Before: A Gold Medal

     It was suggested to write about how my perspective has changed since I've entered this relationship with you. It is an interesting topic as I believe that I truly have changed over the months of February and to where we are at in March.

     You didn't ask for a chronological explanation of before and after, but I thought it may be nice to provide a clear picture for you.

     Before our agreement:

     I can go back to the year 2011. This was a commemorative year, because before that I had never strayed....ever. I had been in a monogamous relationship for over 25 years while raising a family and concentrating on a career. I had exactly one lover ever in my life....yes, one.....(nerd boy as a young man and devoted spouse) ;)

     I happened to reconnect with an old friend who re-introduced me to the strip clubs in the area. I happened to meet a beautiful young lady who became a favorite. Full of nervousness, I had some "fun" with her both at the club and outside of the club, yet never went as far to follow through with the ultimate deed. As Bill Clinton would say when asked about his marijuana use, "I didn't inhale."

     The same friend introduced me to the Asian Massage Parlor scene. Also nervous, we made the excursion the first time to confirm what he told me about these places. Despite several return visits to them, I chose to have fun, yet shied away from Full Service.

     As you are already aware, I was a habitual wanker since an early age. This habit continued through these years as well. I don't believe that a single week went by without wanking to orgasm. There were days where I would get off so much that your toy would become tender. If masturbating was an Olympic sport and awarded a gold medal for longevity, I would certainly win.

      I stumbled upon our common site by accident by June of 2011.

      And the rest is history....yes, you were my first who broke my cherry in the hobby, but you probably didn't know that you became my second...ever. This would explain my extreme nervousness when meeting for the first time if you can recall. I had never considered fulfilling the deed until setting up that first appointment with you. I know that there is a sense of pride for you to know that you were my first.....now you may revel in the fact that you were a second as well..... Surprised? ;)

     After our encounter, I was determined to continue experiencing others which included an exotic dancer, FS at AMPs, and several ladies through my verification service. I have several okays :)

     During these times, I continued having free reign over your toy. I currently have two paid subscriptions to sites. I have subscribed to a couple of others in the past. This may be a good blog topic for the future.

     After these experiences, I came back to you with this proposal.....simple to follow right?

    I think it would be kind of cool to talk about what has transpired since on Friday's post....something to look forward to, right?

     I hope you've enjoyed our chat, ma'am.

     I remain,

     Your pet and your little toy :)

P.S. Currently wearing a sizing ring for the chastity device we have talked about.....hope this pleases you. :)

   

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     We shared a couple of texts this evening regarding another provider when you teased me about ordering me to see her. As you know, I have made the determination to strictly see you since I feel that I have experienced others who have interested me in the past. Despite having relatively positive experiences with others, I honestly do not have a desire to further investigate what others have to offer. After our times together, nothing approaches the experiences that I have had with you. I'm unsure whether you have "clicked" the same way with others, but I can say that the way I have clicked with you during our times together has been extremely satisfying. This may be a lop-sided feeling, but I feel that I have found the best....you.

     With this said, I recognize the fact that you may wish to share me with others. One of the others that both of us have had very positive experiences is with Larissa. You may or may not know that she and I have been together twice in the past. One included the cabin trip in the fall. The other experience, our first together, was what one could call a GFE experience while the cabin trip included some kink. I now know that Larissa is an experienced top who looks forward to sessions where she can exhibit her dominance. For transparency sake, our time together at the cabin included simple kinks of foot and pussy worship.

     

      I felt that you simply wanted to give me a "heads-up" knowing that you may order me to serve Larissa in the future when she traveled through my area. I feel completely at ease spending future time to serve others at your request and would even relish the thought of serving both of you in a duos session. 

     Knowing that both of you enjoy each other and enjoy dominating a sub does make me somewhat nervous. Nervous as I have never experienced a duo in my life. This would be a totally brand new experience for me, and I do not expect to feel as nervous as the first time we spent together, I foresee a certain amount of a different nervousness. Also, due to both of your naughty minds working together causes further nervousness. I know that my body would be a canvas to not only you, but with your partner-in-crime. I can envision both of you plotting on visiting your holes with you ordering me to share all of them with her. ;)

     

     If and when you order me to serve her, a question looms in my mind. Should I indicate to Larissa that I am seeing her at your request or does she know about our unique relationship already? As stated, I have no problem with you ordering me to serve your friend and partner, but I feel that I am owned by you solely. I also stated that I do not care to see anyone except you and despite wishing to schedule time with her, I would not unless given your explicit permission. I know that an appointment would be wonderful with her, yet I am yours. Ultimately, if we ever participated in a threesome (a fantasy), she would more than likely figure it out that I am yours, and I take directions from you first. 

     I hope that you enjoyed your appointment today, your time with others at the M&G, and look forward to hearing about them. :)

     Enjoy tonight's topic as well.

     I remain,

     Your pet and your little toy :)