Why?

     I have no idea why I came to this decision.

     We shared a few texts this morning while sharing pleasantries and subtle teasing. It pleases your pet to hear from you, especially when you ask how I am doing. I recognize that you are asking about my well-being, as well as, how your toy is doing. You were aware that it has been 5 days since last allowing me release last Friday and I enormously enjoyed the teasing that you provided when considering whether a release was merited.

     You finally relented and granted me permission to get off today. The only caveat that you added was to play with my ass while wanking in order for it to be prepared when I see you. My initial reaction was similar to what it has been in the past. I could hardly wait to get home, remove my clothes, lube a dildo for my tight ass, and begin stroking your toy with visions of you. Since you have given no further clues about our rendezvous, at least I discovered that you wanted this hole well prepared for you for your enjoyment.

     After finishing a gym work-out and driving home, I began thinking about what I had accomplished so far in regards to my masturbation habits. It has been 5 days since my last release which doesn't sound like many days, but it is for me since you know that before our relationship, I was a habitual wanker who rarely missed a day. Often, I would rub one out before my work day, return home and wank 2-3 more times in the evening.

     I then began further self-analyzing. I knew that I feel frustration today in your toy and balls. Your balls have become tender, sensitive and there is a "heaviness"-feeling deep into them. It's hard to put into words to describe this somewhat painful experience - blue balls? Also, when my thoughts would drift to being with you, our past conversations, or visions of your pics, your toy would become instantly erect. It is difficult to re-focus in order to lose my erection.

     I wondered how my body would react if I asked you to rescind your permission to get off. Honestly, I can not recall when I've gone so long without an orgasm. I can say it has been MANY years since I have gone 10 days without a come. I can not even remember. 10 would be the number of days without orgasm until I am scheduled to see you. By then, I can not even guess how frustrated I would be!! If your toy and balls are feeling a bit tortured now, what will it be like in 5 more days??? (I kinda want to find out....)

     After several texts, you agreed and have ordered me not to get off until seeing you. You then would make a decision in regards to my future orgasms (if at all).

   
     I immediately regretted my decision....I did something stupid and opened up the two pics you sent me last week. Seeing your body in such a manner caused the typical reaction....a rock hard toy ready to experience an explosive orgasm. I expressed my frustration, and you responded with "too late!" I really really really look forward to being the lucky recipient of other candid photos of you...with a promise from your pet to keep them to himself....

     I then questioned you in regards to how it felt to be the exclusive one that I think about and release to while remembering hot conversations, past sessions, and hot pics. Honestly, I have forsaken my favorite internet sites and find myself focusing on one desirable, beautiful red-head....you, ma'am ;)

     Your response: Desired. Powerful. Utterly amazing, honestly...this is addictive, moreso than I expected

OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!

     You have no idea how much your response pleased me!! I am elated that you think so much of our new relationship! I truly appreciate you going out on a limb and giving this a try....I knew that you were not entirely sure about taking on this type of relationship, but am feeling very fortunate that you chose to accept me as your pet!!

     Finally....feeling a bit more frustrated after viewing this :

     I hope you enjoy this post, ma'am and am literally counting the days until....!!!

Your pet...and your little toy ;)

                                                                         5!!