Feelings...

     Despite being weary and tired from a day of work, gym, and typical housework, I sit down to write a few words this evening at your request :)

     As I explained, I have felt that the last few posts on my blog have been a bit boring as they are more consumed with erotic pics over the spoken word. Since it is common knowledge that men are much more visual in their desires than most women, I thought that you may be growing tired of what may be considered my wanking material. *laughs*

     Once again, however, you reiterated that you appreciated my posts and used them often as a basis of getting off yourself.  As stated previously, it makes your pet extremely happy that the words I use here can cause such a reaction! I am truly humbled that my words about being your pet pleases you as well. When you tell me this, I immediately envision you lying completely nude on your bed with your legs spread, a determined look on your  face, and rubbing your beautiful, sensitive clitoris to an explosive orgasm.

     It also seemed to please you when I mentioned that all of my thoughts have centered around you which causes me to want to play with your little toy. I have found myself attempting to distract myself from my erotic thoughts, especially when my mind wanders to you. You may not be addicted to this blog, yet I find that I'm becoming addicted to you despite our distance. So how does it feel to control my mind and your little toy from such a distance?

     

     I found the chart above that speaks to me. As owner of your little toy, you have allowed me to remain in chaste for the past 7 days. Despite the fact that we have never spent an inordinate amount of time together, I believe that you know that I am a laid-back type of pet. Those who have described my personality can say that I am tolerant, attentive, and patient as compared to others of the male specie.

     As the chart above states, many men including me I am sure, do exhibit these characteristics particularly before being allowed to orgasm where they top off. After orgasm it may take a few days to work up to that certain level before being allowed to orgasm again.

     I have found that I have become even more tolerant, attentive and patient the longer I am in chastity. These levels continue to climb as time passes in chaste. The longer in chastity seems to have increased these other positive characteristics in me. I find myself ignoring my own sexual needs since I know that the likelihood of being allowed to get off is nil. Since all of my attention is shifted from your toy, I have found that my attention is now diverted to pleasing you. Maybe it is because I recognize that you are ultimately the owner who can determine when I can get off sometime in the future. Whether it is or not, I figure that chastity seems to work, especially if you are looking to become more tolerant, attentive, and patient. Who wouldn't want that from their pet??

     I have also mentioned that sometimes I have felt embarrassed for using this blog as a confessional to my perversions. These topics that I have shared have never been shared with anyone else....ever. I really appreciate that you have assured me that you have taken no judgment in what kinks that I've admitted to be sexually arousing. Admittedly, I myself have squirmed a little facing what I've admitted, yet can not deny that these feelings are present. Thank you for not judging, my fellow perverted mistress. :)

     Enjoy my blog, ma'am.

     Your pet....and your little toy ;)

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Kinks: Part 10 Humiliation Series: Milking!

        Many may consider milking to be a vanilla activity. Since most enjoy a good handjob, milking can fall into the category of vanilla sex. The type of milking that I'm interested in exploring is what I guess can be termed "forced milking."

     The idea of being restrained by you, then being forced to endure a "milking" similar to a farm animal is totally humiliating, but hot as well. Being treated as an animal instead of a human being is inherently humiliating. Being restrained with no option to protest what you choose to do to your pet is enticing.

   
     We haven't touched on restraint, yet I find it very interesting. I know that you have had a fascination with ropes, and I would love to be at your mercy. I have had one experience with another who restrained my wrists and ankles while lying face up and spread eagled. I found it hugely erotic as my companion teased my helpless body. Knowing you as I do, I firmly believe that you could make this an out-of-this-world experience.

     Being at your mercy with such a deviant mind would surely be memorable. Being forced to release like a farm animal with your help sounds incredible! Being forced to clean up my mess may also be considered as I know that activity may be required at your request.

     I have almost made it through yet another day of chastity. Writing this blog entry and sharing several texts with you throughout the day has been a challenge. I continue to feel pressure in your balls and the uncomfortable feeling is worse when writing this and/or thinking of you, ma'am.

     I have tried to limit my internet access this evening and attempting to focus on other things while watching television or reading. I am, however, pulled back frequently with my bad thoughts. I am quite proud of myself as I have never attempted this before. I really appreciate your help and understanding....and your teasing. :)

Enjoy my blog this evening, ma'am, and sleep well...sleep in too if you can :)

Your pet....and your little toy

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Why?

     I have no idea why I came to this decision.

     We shared a few texts this morning while sharing pleasantries and subtle teasing. It pleases your pet to hear from you, especially when you ask how I am doing. I recognize that you are asking about my well-being, as well as, how your toy is doing. You were aware that it has been 5 days since last allowing me release last Friday and I enormously enjoyed the teasing that you provided when considering whether a release was merited.

     You finally relented and granted me permission to get off today. The only caveat that you added was to play with my ass while wanking in order for it to be prepared when I see you. My initial reaction was similar to what it has been in the past. I could hardly wait to get home, remove my clothes, lube a dildo for my tight ass, and begin stroking your toy with visions of you. Since you have given no further clues about our rendezvous, at least I discovered that you wanted this hole well prepared for you for your enjoyment.

     After finishing a gym work-out and driving home, I began thinking about what I had accomplished so far in regards to my masturbation habits. It has been 5 days since my last release which doesn't sound like many days, but it is for me since you know that before our relationship, I was a habitual wanker who rarely missed a day. Often, I would rub one out before my work day, return home and wank 2-3 more times in the evening.

     I then began further self-analyzing. I knew that I feel frustration today in your toy and balls. Your balls have become tender, sensitive and there is a "heaviness"-feeling deep into them. It's hard to put into words to describe this somewhat painful experience - blue balls? Also, when my thoughts would drift to being with you, our past conversations, or visions of your pics, your toy would become instantly erect. It is difficult to re-focus in order to lose my erection.

     I wondered how my body would react if I asked you to rescind your permission to get off. Honestly, I can not recall when I've gone so long without an orgasm. I can say it has been MANY years since I have gone 10 days without a come. I can not even remember. 10 would be the number of days without orgasm until I am scheduled to see you. By then, I can not even guess how frustrated I would be!! If your toy and balls are feeling a bit tortured now, what will it be like in 5 more days??? (I kinda want to find out....)

     After several texts, you agreed and have ordered me not to get off until seeing you. You then would make a decision in regards to my future orgasms (if at all).

   
     I immediately regretted my decision....I did something stupid and opened up the two pics you sent me last week. Seeing your body in such a manner caused the typical reaction....a rock hard toy ready to experience an explosive orgasm. I expressed my frustration, and you responded with "too late!" I really really really look forward to being the lucky recipient of other candid photos of you...with a promise from your pet to keep them to himself....

     I then questioned you in regards to how it felt to be the exclusive one that I think about and release to while remembering hot conversations, past sessions, and hot pics. Honestly, I have forsaken my favorite internet sites and find myself focusing on one desirable, beautiful red-head....you, ma'am ;)

     Your response: Desired. Powerful. Utterly amazing, honestly...this is addictive, moreso than I expected

OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!

     You have no idea how much your response pleased me!! I am elated that you think so much of our new relationship! I truly appreciate you going out on a limb and giving this a try....I knew that you were not entirely sure about taking on this type of relationship, but am feeling very fortunate that you chose to accept me as your pet!!

     Finally....feeling a bit more frustrated after viewing this :

     I hope you enjoy this post, ma'am and am literally counting the days until....!!!

Your pet...and your little toy ;)

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Titillating Tuesday!

     Today, I thought that I would do something different. I decided that it would be kind of hot to post various pics and some narrative attached to various pics that I have found arousing.

     I hope you enjoy them as well, ma'am. :)

     Your pet....and your little toy ;)

Kinks: Part 9 Sounding!

     The next kinky topic that I chose to discuss is that of sounding.

     We had a recent discussion where it was pointed out that you, ma'am, have full control over all of my holes.

     You have provided me with a scenario where I was allowed to wank with the images of me worshipping your strap-on. I was expected to release while imagining licking and sucking your strap-on with my gaping mouth. It is recognized that you have control over my mouth to do with as you please.

     I have also relinquished control of my other hole, especially when you choose to use your strap-on. I have accepted the fact that my tight anus is yours to do with as you please as well. It has been related that you were the first to use a strap-on on my virgin asshole. You were very patient and benevolent when you took your hole the first time. I know that you look forward to filling your hole once again, hopefully soon.

   
     In our discussion recently, you made sure that I knew that you had also taken control of my third hole in your toy. You explained that you did have a sounding set that you looked forward to using on this third hole that is yours to do with as you please.

   
     I have never experienced this type of play, yet am interested to do so with your guidance. I know that you are interested in this type of play as well. This kink does interest me, because I know that you are excited to try it with your toy. I trust you implicitly to perform this on your pet with care. I have fully accepted that this hole belongs to you and you are quite within your rights to perform this or any other form of activity on this hole as you see fit.

   
     I am quite curious to experience the feeling of a metal rod being sent down this hole. I'm expecting some discomfort, yet am excited that the whole experience excites you as well. I imagine you giddy with anticipation of exploring the hole in your toy.

     Allowing this activity is an indication of how I completely trust you with all parts of your pet's body. I truly appreciate the interest that you have in helping me expand my horizons sexually. I like the fact that you have accepted control of not only my orgasms, but have taken the lead in using my entire body as you wish.

     I hope that your travel went well today, ma'am. Please enjoy the post as I hope that it is met with enthusiasm.

Your pet....and your little toy ;)

Kinks: Part 8 Shemales!

     In yet another post in a series that I call "Kinks," I wish to profile my interest in shemales! During one of our conversations, you described meeting a possible doubles partner who happened to be tv/ts. You described her as being a switch and you wondered whether I thought that this type of duo was wise to consider.

    I believe that I surprised you in relating that I would be interested in breaking her in with you despite knowing that she had what you described as a "pretty lady cock." Even before this discussion with you, I had honestly been intrigued by shemales. I had watched shemale porn in the past, found them arousing, and have gotten off viewing them.

     It's difficult to describe my interest, but I can say that I wonder how she would respond to my oral skills. The idea of you providing coaching/instructions as I perform orally on her "lady cock" would be very hot!! It may be a forced -bi scene, yet performed first with a shemale which may ultimately lead to other situations with other interested partners in the future, of course under your guidance. Speaking of the forced-bi scenes, they indeed interest me and I hope to address them in the future here. :)

   
     I recognize the fact that those who have had hormone therapy may not be functional as well. The fact that your potential duo partner is pre-hormone and is able to perform causes your toy to become erect due to the possibilities. The idea of you allowing your pet a new experience by playing with her as a top or bottom truly has me nervous, yet arousing.

     I would hope that I could improve my oral skills under your tutelage as well as learn the nuances of anal sex while you observe. It makes me want to wank your toy thinking of the scenarios that you could devise. ;)

     Indeed, it would be my place to simply watch as both of you played unless told to participate. Watching you, ma'am, with her would be incredibly erotic and you can be assured that your pet would follow through with your directions including cleaning up any messes that were made while you enjoy each other.

     I truly hope that you enjoyed reading my post today, ma'am. It gives me pleasure giving you insight what goes on in your pet's perverted mind daily. Also, I hope you enjoy the visuals provided here knowing that your toy is fully aroused, yet I refuse to consider wanking without your permission.

     Again, thanks for reading, ma'am!

Your pet.....and your little toy ;)