The Day After

     The day after our play: After you allowed me to get off for abusing your toy last night, I felt the need to refresh before my final wanking for the evening. A hot shower ensued which seemed to re-invigorate me after such a difficult task was met. Immediately after the shower, I once again went to my Becki file which contained the additional pics that you sent to further motivate me. The feeling was different while getting off knowing that I had your permission and would not have to abuse my balls after. It didn't take long for me to wank to orgasm while focusing on you.  The game was difficult for me, but it became worth the effort after being allowed to fully release. Despite the abuse your toy took and the ensuing wank, it didn't take long to become aroused again while thinking of my mistress. With a great deal of misgivings, I released your toy and went to bed without providing it with any further attention.

     This morning, my balls were still somewhat tender, yet this discomfort yielded as the day progressed.

     In a previous post, I explained how things have changed since being in this relationship with you. It is fully documented that I considered myself a habitual wanker before and have changed considerably since. Knowing that I am owned, I find myself avoiding Internet sites that have interested me in the past. Honestly, I don't know the last time I have visited the sites that I have paid to become a member. I avoid these sites, because they remind me of the days/nights where I got myself off multiple times viewing them. Also, I do not visit them, because they frustrate me knowing I can't get off to them any longer without your permission. One of the sites that I frequently visited and have a balance available is a phone sex site. In the past, I would add to my account and enjoy talking to those who interested mea and who used dirty talk to get me off. The balance has sat in my account since February 1st due to our unique relationship.

     Another activity that I'd enjoyed in the past was visiting gentlemen's clubs in the area. I became quite well known by the workers and dancers at one particular club. My participation has waned over the last year and has been completely non-existent since Feb. 1st. I recognize that I have issues with my self-control as I'm sure you've noticed. These establishments frustrate me so I figure that the best way to deal with the frustration is to not provide them with the business.

     I wanted to once again wish you luck in preparation for your upcoming exams. As I stated in text, "You're too fucking smart for that shit." :)

     I will leave you with some pics that will surely give you an idea of kink that I'm anxious to discuss:

     I remain,

     Your Pet and your little toy :)