Thanks for being soooo incredibly understanding regarding my recent inactivity on your blog. I returned to work today, yet left about an hour early after experiencing more pain. I can't help but think that the pain is a result of my lower back that I tweaked during my work-out at the gym on Monday. It is the most significant pain since having lower back surgery 16 years ago....ughh. Honestly, I miss having the routine during the week, especially the gym that provides me health and stress relief...
With that said, I can still say that I continue to be under your spell...As I stated in a text yesterday, when I wake up in the morning, I think of you, my mistress. At various times during the day, I randomly think about you as well.
It is a curious condition for me to ponder. Our relationship has certainly evolved. Indeed, in the past, we both admitted that the chemistry between us was great...we simply clicked from the beginning as I really enjoyed your company, and you enjoyed mine. You were my first in the experience, and it became the one that I measured all others against. You not only popped my hobby cherry, but you also popped my anal cherry amongst other firsts for me. Despite this chemistry, we rarely got to spend time with each other due to the distance between us. I waited almost an entire year in order to be able to see you a second time when you toured my area. I even recall that you visited my area on another tour, yet our schedules did not mesh, and I could not see you. Then, we had further opportunity at the cabin event which was tremendous, yet did not have the ability to spend a long period of time together due to the structure of the event.
Between times we met, I began exploring the "hobby" world and took your advice to see others frequently. Indeed, our experiences together were awesome and one-of-a-kind, but admittedly, I did not feel the connection with you then as I have at this time. The vast majority of the experiences with others were purely vanilla in nature without seeking any type of kink. As my own study of kink began to widen, I began seeking others who provided such activities. I found one who provided strap-on sex, foot & body worship, and golden showers. I found it to be extremely erotic and saw her more than once, and we seemed to have good chemistry, yet not even close to what we had together. I did have a short-lived long distance relationship with her, but never evolved into nothing that we have together now.
I approached you about the possibility of taking on this type of relationship, because I knew from past discussions that the kink side of sex intrigued you. If you recall, we talked about the kink side when we met for the first time. You expressed being interested in kink, especially those that would be considered bottom activities and encouraged me to explore into this world using the fetlife website. I recall asking you whether you knew of any recommended dommes which you could not provide. You also began exposing forum members to the kink side with various polls with pictures. I certainly knew that this interested you further when you helped tie up another at the cabin. Your skills using the rope on her impressed me and was quite a turn on.
Despite knowing that these activities interested you, I was unsure whether you were interested in top activities. Obviously your interest evolved over the years. I took a chance and asked knowing that you could simply say "no" and would not judge me for asking as others may who would find the request "weird" or "strange."
As we approach our fourth month...(yes....month four!), I can not even imagine waiting a year to see you. Since you have agreed to control me in all facets besides cock ownership, I can not get enough of you. The longer I wait between orgasms, I become more obsessed with you, ma'am. Knowing that you control everything about my sexual needs and desires has turned me into a true slave to you. Again, it's interesting to examine what has happened, yet I hope that my obsession over you does not turn you off and you're able to tolerate what has happened in my head. I try my best not to be overbearing, especially on our daily communication, and I certainly do not want to bore you either.
I now can not wait for June...knowing that I may have the opportunity to serve you keeps me going :) Am I at a point where I could stay celibate until I see you in June?? I know I would become more needy and a basket-case...more obsessive than ever I would guess...
I know that I wish to see you, but now we must agree upon a length...I truly am open to suggestions as you know I do like long appointments...plus I wish to provide you with another unforgettable experience as well while wishing to completely drain the pleasure from you...I want you to be able to say, "That was in my top three sessions ever. I really, really enjoy my slave." How long of a time would I need to serve you and how long would it take for you to say that?? You do realize that I literally could spend hours pleasuring you with my tongue....just being around you servicing you as you went about your business including relaxing, working, watching tv, emailing, etc...sooo hot....
Thanks for being there, ma'am....
I'm yours...
I remain,
Your Pet and your (very) little toy ;)
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